frustration has set in

so, yesterday was rough, but I did weigh in. I just was not able to post about it. frustration has set in. and honestly, its frustration with myself.

I am not a good dieter. I am not consistent with exercise. up until I turned 27, I never had to be good at either. I was an athlete in high school and ate whatever I wanted. after I stopped playing sports, I curbed my diet a little, but never really had to be consistent with exercise to maintain my weight. by the time I was 25, I noticed that pounds could be gained fairly easy if I over indulged the desserts and fried food. so, I just limited my intake of those treats. still, I ate full fat, pastas and breads with no problem. by 27, I was getting married and noticed some bulging that I wanted to address. I worked out in preparation for THE DRESS (wedding dress that is...). as soon as my feet hit st. lucia soil (honeymoon) all exercise and dieting was out the window. but the little I did before the wedding was not that much effort, so I did not see an immediate swing in weight gain.

fast forward a year, we find ourselves in boston and I find myself gaining weight quickly. my clothes did not fit and I was shocked when during a routine doctor's visit I weighed 15 pounds heavier than the year prior. "oh my goodness", I thought. so I started on a road of serious dieting and exercise. I cut my calorie intake and worked out daily. I mean I CUT calories and COUNTED calories burned during every DAILY workout. In a couple months those 15 pound were gone and a few months after that, a few more pounds were gone and I was shopping for new clothes. clothes in a size I hadn't seen since the early '90s.

we moved backed a year and half later, and I maintained a weight about 5-8 pounds heavier than the "skinny courtney", which was no problem for me. I then got pregnant and boy did I gain weight. I gained 55 pounds (last count) and enjoyed every signature one. surprisingly, the 55 pound did not fall off immediately following double l's birth!

so, a long story short, for the past 2 years I have REALLY wanted to lose the weight and get my belly back. the key word is that I have wanted this NOT actually worked really hard at it.

so, I ask you "why the heck do I have to work 10 TIMES harder to be 15 heavier than I was 10 years ago?" How do you keep motivated? Make time?

I did jillian michael's level 3 yesterday. oh my goodness, it was rough, but I felt so good afterwards. now, I am sore, but still feel good. I worked out during naptime, which I never do. I think it worked well, because I normally workout at night. but sometimes by the time my bub gets home I am too tired and completely unmotivated. so at least mondays and wednesdays, I will be getting a consistent workout!

sadly, here they are...

STATS:
start weight - 138
week 1 - 136
week 2 - 136
week 3 - 137
week 4 - 137

we interrupt our regular scheduled wednesday post with a rough night sleep and AM visit to the doctor's office. low grade fever since sunday, some congestion, wet cough and a rough night sleep equaled congestion induced ear infections with nebulizer treatments back in full force. well at least that's what I thought. thankfully, double l's lungs are clear and ears fine. so no nebulizer. HOORAY!!! but he is getting his molars and that is causing a lot of discomfort. with that in mind, we will invest in some icy treats and extra hugs from mama. but for now, we are going to get lunch out and then a much needed nap for my little tired guy. I am thinking about joining him!

can't wait to visit your WW posts!

open letter to our local post office...

dear post office of my town,

we went to visit you yesterday early, well mid-morning. and coming off the 4th of july weekend, I expected a line. however, you did not. you had one person working the counter. why, exactly? not judging, just would like to understand the differences in our thought process. I expected to wait, but not 30 MINUTES! and due to my ability to put off the most important things, such as my son's 2nd birthday invitations and mailing my adorable nephew's baseball cap back to california, I had no choice but to wait. however, as you are painfully aware, I waited for 30 minutes in line with an almost 2 year old. I am sure that made you nervous as you did eventually open another line. but surprising us all, my son was entertaining and well behaved as well as a 2 year old could be. double l did throw NOT (oops updated) a tantrum or scream or break anything. of course, he wanted to touch the phillies posters and special birthday boxes. I mean, after 20 minutes in line, I wanted to touch them too. but more importantly double l entertained your customers. he ran around the line, which conveniently wrapped around like a circle, about 100 hundred times. and then broke out his shades making everyone in line smile and giggle. we could have protested, but we all fell in love with the cutest little man in town. not saying, you owe me as I am his mother... just wanted you to know!

signed,
courtney "the mother of that adorable little man"

p.s. don't mind the blurry iphone photo!

the simple woman's daybook ~ 7.6.2009

even though 'the simple woman's daybook' is on summer vacation (but grandmother gren is hosting), I thought it would be fun to post my monday morning tidbits...


For Today...

Outside my window... birds singing their morning song! breezy, but thinking it will warm up quickly!

I am thinking... of what double l and I must accomplish before gymboree class.

I am thankful for... the provisions that God has made for me every single day. my life is good!

From the kitchen... coffee brewing. oh, and I think I just heard the beep!!!

I am wearing... bermuda shorts (I know!! I shouldn't wear them), my tory burch flats (LOVE THEM and no pedicure) and a navy tee. no lazy morning around here. up and showered before the little man wakes up!

I am reading... no update here still on the night stand because I have been such a slow reader ~ becoming God's true woman by n. demoss.

I am hoping... I get all double l's birthday party invites out today. we are so late!

I am creating... a list of all our errands for the day. accomplishing half would be considered a success!

I am praying... healing for mamaw who is in the hospital.

Around the house... these hardwood floors need a good cleaning. its on the list!!!

One of my favorite things... taking family walks in the evenings. double l has been revolting against the stroller, but last night he jumped in it (it was in the dining room) and requested a walk. we took a long one. all four of us (me, bub, LL and claire). I did not know how much I missed those walks...

A few plans for the rest of the week... three days in the office, starting to organize the third floor, baking a cake for pop-pop joe's birthday and celebrating!

Here is a picture I am sharing with you... since double l's 2nd birthday party is coming up, here is a photo of his 1st birthday party!

our 4th of july...

I sure hope you all are enjoying your 4th of july. we are!!! we started the day off enjoying our adorable little town's parade. lucky us ~ the parade's staging area is on our street, so we see the entire parade without the crowds. double l LOVED it. last year, he was too small to enjoy it. but this year, he waved at the parade passing by, laughed and yelled "HELLO!!" to everyone going by. it made this 4th of july even more special than it already is... claire joined us (of course) and greeted all the other pups that passed by. she is the mayor of the town!

highlights are below. you'll find everything from the vets in our parade, a little "back to the future", some mummers and even a spotting of mommie in the baby pool. we finished off our day with a yummy cookout and we are just chillin' out for the rest of the evening!

ENJOY!

happy 4th of july!

off to our little town's parade, cookout later and hopefully we will see the fireworks from our porch this evening. but most of all, many thanks for our independence, democracy and blessed country! my prayers go out to all the men & women serving and their families!

enjoy your 4th! any special plans?

my jeans are never going to forgive me...

with family visiting, the last week and half have been hard for me to stay on track. even though I missed official weigh in last week, I did brave the scale. surprisingly, I gained nothing. however, I did not lose anything either. and today's weigh in, well that was a different story. before I revel the numbers, I do believe a special thanks needs to go out to my sister-in-law who makes delicious desserts and joined me in a mid-day milkshake at ruby's. many other thanks go out to the entire california crew who are ten times more fun than the gym (reason why I did not go!) and my MIL, who was kind enough to keep us fed!

yes, I gained a pound. and to be honest, I am surprised. I thought I would be right back to where I started. but I am not, and must get back on track this week. even with the 4th! I do not need ice-cream every night. I can make healthy, low fat alternatives for our cookout. I must eat breakfast. and I MUST workout! I popped in the jillian michael's shred DVD tonight and sweated so much my sports bra and shirt were so wet. it felt good and I must make a point to do that DVD or get my buns to the gym EVERYDAY! remember I am on a mission!

STATS:
start weight - 138
week 1 - 136
week 2 - 136
week 3 - 137


okay, off to comment with my stats over at the sisterhood. and I am going to try to avoid making jen's suggested dessert on this post (even though I already promised my husband). it totally looks YUMMY!